"But there was no one who even knew I was going through, growing pains/Hatred was flowing through my veins, on the verge of going insane/I almost made a song dissing Lil Wayne" Eminem
Eminem spit those lyrics on his 2010 song "Talkin 2 Myself," but nobody knew that he was dead serious. The Shady Records CEO spoke with Big Boy's Neighborhood today and broke down his mind state at the time and why he had West and Weezy on his radar.
“When I made the record ‘Talkin’ 2 Myself,’ what I was basically talking about [was] with the time period that I was away. I was kind of watching what was going on in the game and it was like anything that was hot at that moment or anybody who was really killing shit at that moment I felt like—I felt so bad about myself and the music that I was creating, that I felt like I started to turn into a hater. And it wasn’t just—you know, singling Kanye and Wayne out at that time period, I mean they were the one’s who were the killing it the most to me. And it hurt. I’d pop the CD in and be like, ‘Fuck man, I’m not doing this no more.’ I felt like I came very close to like, for me it would have been career suicide because I felt like, ‘I should make a song just dissing everybody who's doing in it the game right now.’”
“I just had the thoughts, just walking around the studio. I think that deep down I just wasn’t happy with myself, man. I knew that there were some really dark moments in there. When I think about how my thought process was when I was high a lot, it wasn’t good, man, and it certainly wasn’t me ‘cause I’m not even that kind of person.”
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